Too Much For Less

"Too much happiness can make someone less happy," as studies shows. I still uncertain about whether this is true to everyone or to just a few individuals. As for me, it IS. I don't know how to explain it very detailed. Whenever I was happy, sooner it feels like sadness covers up ALL the happiness I have had. It happens when I was all alone.

It always happens to me, one way or another. It seemed to be an uncommonly common routine--I feel too much happiness then will fill with sadness, sooner or later. Unseemly favorable with my life, this cycle gives me reason to keep going with what I have at hand and striving for what I want to be in my grasp. 

The happiness I had is not genuine. For most of the time, whenever people see me happy, I am just hiding what i feel inside. What is my reason? I don't want people to think about my recent situation. I am always running from my loneliness, and it seemed that my loneliness always overtakes me whenever I do. That is how miserable my life was. 

With all of these happenings, I still thank the One who made me for, I am uniquely created this way; I am blessed to feel two emotions one after the other; and, I am capable of resisting some occurrence to dwell in only one feeling and forget that I do also have another.